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Update and all that shit [08 Jun 2004|05:00pm]
Um... have the mac back.. very happy about that. Um, moved... I love it XD.. um.. work sucks... and uh... starting comic as soon as I finish the monumentous task of unpacking ><;; Yay. And uh, stuff. At any rate, going to be online a lot less than usual, at least until I get that terrifying mountain of boxes sorted through. I can't walk in my new bedroom just yet. And for the record.. the amount of Asuka merchandise I have collected over the years is just um... so much it's rather creepy, well, would be to other people anyway. hell, as a matter of a fact I have been told as much by friends hah.
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On building resin kits: [12 May 2004|09:50pm]
[ mood | aggravated ]

As Bill said during volume 1, "this is me, at my most masocistic"

At any rate, the laptop is in for some repairs so I may not be around very much on the forums or anything of the sort. I'm taking this as a sign to catch up on artwork and some model building. Granted, it's nice to know that the model is in your posession all nice and pristine in the box but what's the point of having it if you don't build it. I wish I could make money at this, I'm relatively good at it. I can say with a great deal of ease I am a million times better with model kits than I am with comics. Meh.

Anyway, if you need to get up with me try my cell phone first off. It'll be the easiest method for now. ;_; I miss it so much already. Windows OS is annoying.

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Wheeeeeeeeeeee .. tacos. [10 May 2004|09:46pm]
[ mood | excited ]

I am moving. OK... in same town and all but still moving to another place. SO EXCITED! XD. Um.. yeah. At any rate, all busy with that. Work is going good... going to be full time soon, or so it has been alluded to and uh... getting my business liscense applications middle of next month. NFERNO SHALL RISE AGAIN!! ::cough::

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Attn Kei: [19 Apr 2004|09:09pm]
Who the fuck did your hair... and can they do mine???
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Bang bang my baby shot me dooooown! [18 Apr 2004|11:25pm]
[ mood | aggravated ]

Uh, well, anyway, aside from my massive fangirlish fagging over Kill Bill since volume 2 has made itself known in my life. Just alot of crazy shit with work going on. Too much chaos to get ready for my vacation. They're trying to bribe me right now to get me to not go but considering I pre-worked the hours in order to go I think I would slip into a homicidal death march all over the entire corporation if they tried to stop me. But, at any rate I'll still be available if anyone needs me. Just pop me an email. With something logical in the subject or it'll get bounced right back to your ass. I'm getting roughly 60-70 spam emails a day offering me viagra and to enhance my mortgage rate on this house I do not own. So I go on these blanket bouncing sprees to send it back to the bastards. (God damn I do so love my mac)

Happy belated birthday to Kei! I would have driven up for a visit if I had any free time to get away from the chaos. Gotta get up with you sometime soon though. I'll be back in May.

Don't sweat your friend calling any. It was amusing to say the least.

Everyone else:
Um... yeah, have fun and take it easy.

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[25 Mar 2004|10:37pm]
[ mood | exhausted ]

Scripting good. Work bad. I am massive artfag. WD is now so... so... I dunno, special. Not so much plagrey anymore (granted there must be plagrey cameo) I should start making like 'art journal/diary' type things... when I can get a moments rest or time. Yech.

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fuck. [18 Mar 2004|11:10pm]
I am so tired... that was my second 14 hour day in 3 days... work again tomorrow. And then rinse and repeat next week. I HAVE however gotten some more scripting done on Without Darkness v.2.0 har.
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::chuckle:: [15 Mar 2004|06:09pm]
I love con people. They make me smile. Um, at any rate, VERY BUSY THIS WEEK OMG OMG OMG. I hate work sometimes. At any rate, I'll get up with you peoples later in the week ^^
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Grumblecakes! [12 Mar 2004|01:56pm]
Well, got off from work early today (thank god ^^;;; ) Won't be in much but if you need to reach me I have my phone as per always (swear the fucking thing is glued to my god damn head)

Sorry missed your call last night Danny-boy. I'll probablyy get back to ya later on this week.

And Alex, harharharhar You're SO right about Shion <3333 (wait until you see the end of the game.. and the SONG they chose for it) that's all I'm going to say. Well, that and U-DooooOoooo that voodood that u dooooo so well.
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-bored- [11 Mar 2004|02:46pm]
Meh, things going slow at work today, thought I would waste some time with some posting on LJ. Like to say hello to my new buddy list additon GAZ. He's one of my two fans ^^;;;

Going to TRY to get nF up and running sometime soon. Hopefully I'll have a few days to do that sometime soon.

Hope everyone is doing well.
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tiny update [14 Jan 2004|07:32pm]
[ mood | chipper ]

I honestly don't know why I haven't deleted this journal just yet. I mean, I post on it like once every blue moon.

At any rate, things are going well for me I suppose. Work finally slowed down. I did enough end of the year "income reconciliation" paperwork to make me want to gouge my eyes out with a pen. Then, once the end of the year came we had a surprise in house audit (yuck) and some higher ups show up for a while. During this time I had a really bad case of the flu, and I had to go into work anyway because we're short staffed. I'm guessing that it has taken me twice as long to get over it because of the inadequate time I have had to rest.

nFerno is coming back up (yet again the bitch won't just die) I'll probably be announcing that when Dassy-baby has finished with the coding. I just draw gimpy pictures to put up. I'm a code moron.

I had a good holiday, spent some time with my family which was very nice. Got some clothes for work. (much needed) and they took pity on me and gave me some cash (which went towards a PS2 I am so irresponsible meh) BUT I do play it a whole bunch. I'm usually so tired during the week after work that's about all I feel like doing anyway.

I've made a new friend (yes, the mighty ial is not a social being so the additon of *a* friend is impressive) she's in a band around the area and we're gonna chill out and act stupid sometime soon. It'll be nice to be social again.

At any rate, I hope all of you are doing well. Drop me an email or something if you wanna do something you know where to send it.

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update [12 Oct 2003|06:34pm]
Well, I just wanted to let anyone who's emailed me in the past couple of weeks that I've switched computers so if I haven't emailed you back then it's probably because it got lost in the transition.. or I don't have the contact information on this machine.

So if any of you happen to still have what you sent or anything please send it to beth@nfernocomics.com sorry about that. Don't want any of you to think I'm ignoring you it's just I don't know how to get in touch with you until I transfer the information from one to the other.

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*scratches head* [13 Jun 2003|04:35pm]
[ mood | artistic ]


takami826 102%
maguamaru 98%
takami826 98%
pixiesboy 95%
tre_king 92%
disgruntled_ben 87%
janazehl 87%
maltor 84%
samari 80%
kthm 68%
How compatible with me are YOU?
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X_x;;;; [04 Jun 2003|10:56pm]
[ mood | plague ridden ]

Grgh... just wanted to say sorry for not replying to emails and stuff lately. I've felt like absolute ass and a half as of recent. Lots of coughing and fever and dizzy spells. Haven't been able to do much of anything except sleep and complain. Ceom to think of it I'm still in my jammies and didn't even take the time to comb my hair I look like an escaped monkey from the zoo. Who is making nasty hack noises anyway.

Hopefully in the next day or two I'll feel better but I just wanted to give an update to those who might be curious anyway.

Also wanted to say it's good to see an update from Sijo. I was worried about him. Just know my thoughts are with ya man. Take care of yourself.


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*thud* [27 May 2003|09:26pm]
[ mood | sick ]

Well, I just wanted to leave a short update for anyone who might have tried to get ahold of me via email. Right now we're switching (well Das is switching) nF to a new server plan and doing alot of re-vamps. Because of this my email is down for right now until he can set the accounts back up. (Yes I have more than one. One is for work email, the other is for personal stuff)

At any rate I feel like ass right now. I'm going to make it an early night it's not fun being female sometimes if you posess 3 brain cell sintelligent enough to infer what I am suffering from as far as monthly afflictions go. At any rate I'm sore, cranky and tired. Good day to everyone juat wanted you to know I'm not dead or anything.

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WTF [20 May 2003|04:01am]
[ mood | tired ]

It's 4 am... I've decided it was a good thing to make a 3 page omake about sock puppets. Somehow I think my opinion of this exectutive decision will be different when my eyes uncross. Godd I dread seeing what that's gonna look like in print *lol*

Goodnight everyone I won't be up for a while. Sleep good... *eye cross again* egh.

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*w00ta55* [20 May 2003|02:31am]
[ mood | excited ]

*ahem* I had 2 fans at Acen. I'm movin' on up *boogies on down* Sadly... 2 fans is big news to me. I'm well on my way to .. dun dun dah duuun! THREE. I dunno just something gratifying about someone you've never even met liking your stuff. Hope it happens more often it's a really good feeling.

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Quiz Time with IAL ^_^ [19 May 2003|02:05am]
[ mood | bouncy ]

Jolly good, wot! Anyone for tennis? That'll be ten ponies, guv. You're the epitome of everything that is english. Yey :) Hoist that Union Jack!

How British are you?

this quiz was made by alanna

Which flock do you follow?

this quiz was made by alanna

Do you cluck or do you roar?

this quiz was made by alanna

Which X2 Character Are You?

Meh, I stole the quizzes from Dan and Abra's LJ. Bored. I should sleep or something but I woke up so late today that would be quite a loss. I should probably finish sending 6 on ftp and then start on 7 wheeeeee fun *bounce*
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Survey thing everyone but me has on their LJ [15 May 2003|05:53pm]
[ mood | satisfied ]

01. My name is... Beth (aka Hardy McBadderAss)
02. I may seem... aloof, distant, constantly annoyed, evil.
03. But I really... a fucktard who needs more sleep.
04. People who know me think I... Am something I am not.
05. If you knew me you'd probably... be very surprised.
06. Sometimes I feel... lonely.
07. In the morning I... Sleep… Fuck knows the last time I saw morning.
08. I like to sleep... until 12 at least.
09. If I could be doing anything right now I would be... well…
10. Money is... Something I don’t have much of but if I did I’d buy a big house where we both could live!
11. One thing I wish I had is... no comment
12. One thing I have that I wish I didn't is... soft legs need more muscle
13. All you need is... cigarettes and love.
14. All I need is... cigarettes and love.
15. If I had one wish it would be... also, no comment
16. Love is... all I need honestly, well and the occasional lovin’.
17. My body... thin but with what I have been told are sexy hips.!
18. If an angel flew through my window at night I would... assume it was the tooth fairy and kill it
19. If a demon crashed into my window I would... know it was the tooth fairy and run .
20. If I could see one person right now it would be... again, no comment
21. Something I want but I don't really need is... a gamecube.
22. Something I need but I don't really want is... another job – more money
23. I live for... the right moment
24. I dare you all to... give people a chance, listen before assuming
25. I am afraid of... mice (I scream like a little girl)

Well a little update on this end of the pond. I'm making pork-chops tonight I am teh l33t cookz0rz. I sent out emails to everyone I needed to today I think. Well everyone that has a tentative reply waiting for them in my inbox at any rate. Um... I doubt I'll be up to much anything this weekend as I gotta wait on my paycheck. I'm going to wait until the crowds die down a bit on the Matrix Reloaded. Just not a big enough bit of anticipation to want to fight the people. I may just have a peaceful weekend sitting back in my underwear playing video games, online or something equally lame like that. Although I did promise that I'd round up content for my web-page. I think it's just not tacky enough for me to want to put alot of stuff on it just yet. But with the introduction of a new tablet into the mix this may change soon.

At any rate I do hope that everyone is doing well. Hell I'm not sure too many people even read this. But to those who do I hope you're happy and well adjusted and well fed and the like.

I'm going to be lazy and take a nap haha.

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Make of this what you willl I suppose. I just need to vent. [10 May 2003|05:26pm]
[ mood | melancholy ]

Today is not exactly the best day of the year for me. The proceeding 3 days from now certainly aren't, tomorrow is Mothers Day. I really truly hate that day with every fiber of my being. Not because of my mother mind you, I just. I lost someone very important in a most terrible manor on that day. And, subsequently my life turned upside down. It still haunts me at night. And as the year has rolled around I still can't sleep anymore. Hell to be honest I've had 2 cookies and like 10 Pringles all day and that's been just about enough to make me puke. Hopefully I can sustain myself on soda for the next 3 days. Last year I stopped talking to people... stopped sleeping, stopped eating, stopped living. And honestly, I'm not sure I'll ever fully get over it. Well one day I can hopefully. If I can ever get back in contact with that friend. I miss them more than words can say.

I basically just sat in a daze as the people around me opened their mouths for what they thought was the righteous thing to do with good intentions I suppose... while I just sat there and shook and cried like a fucking disgusting coward. I still to this day hate myself for it. Although, I'm honestly not sure even if I could have stood up and said something... anything, that it would have helped any. I know the begging to someone... god satan... anything to make it all better sure didn't manage anything fruitful. I wanted to be diplomatic. I didn't want anyone fighting over anything. That is the one thing I hate most is conflict and I try to avoid it if at all possible. I guess that's part of the reason I seclude myself so much now a days. Oh well... such is my choice I suppose.

I think the thing that frustrates me the most is that someone who I used to be decently good friends with, well, they had romantic feelings towards me that I didn't return. So during this situation they made it evident to people who disliked me, how much he disliked them. I am still not sure to this day if it was to impress me or what but, all it ended up doing is making me a miserable person because I lost my most precious friend because of it. They basically forsook promises and vows they had made to people as friends... hell close to family. Really upsetting them and hurting their feelings, all because they assumed that would make me feel better I think. It didn't. Then... after weeks of not being able to sleep... wasting away to roughly 3-40 lbs. under my medically prescribed body weight. This person looked at me, the sunken in, and basically destroyed skeleton, who wasn't even capable of driving anywhere on her own anymore because she went into fits of shaking and crying... sometimes passing out. This person... asked me in all seriousness to "fix their hearts" still to this day I could not really understand the motivation for it. And I really didn't have a good answer for him aside from the fact I wasn't the person who he should be asking for such a feat. He started coming around less and less after that... after he realized his theories on me had been wrong. And eventually, I called to check up on him one day and he had found someone to love him like I wasn't willing to. He was a sweet guy and a good friend but it's just not in me to pretend to love someone when I don't and I wouldn't do that to him or anyone. That was the last day I ever heard from him. He ended up changing phone numbers so I wasn't even capable of getting half my worthless possessions back either.

People say I have changed, that I always act like something is wrong with me. That I'm not the same cheerful person they've always known. well you know what... you're more than likely right. I really do not wish to be close to people anymore. I trust very few people... and talk to even fewer. I don't want to care about people because they get ripped away out of hate and hurt. And to be honest I'm not so sure how much more of that I could emotionally take without wanting to kill myself in a most vicious manor. So I hide... I bury myself in my work... and I try to sleep, when the exhaustion finally hits me. You may say that's a terrible way to live but it's the only way I know how.

I don't really know if there was much point to this. I'm not sure anyone will ever even read it but. It's just one of the many things I've had bumbling my heart lately. I need to get back to work anyway.

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